Merry and weird

Welp, the last of a four day streak of no treatments. Oh, and I guess it was the holidays and all, too. There's something nice about not having to go to the hospital for that long a period of time. It was starting to get a little too routine.

I started collecting some things in my head that are just strike me as weird.

1. Sometimes I'll forget that I'm wearing a hospital bracelet many hours after I've left the hospital. I was so not the type to do that in the past. I hope no one has noticed.

2. When I enter the main entrance of the main hospital building, I wonder every time why there aren't people with limbs hanging off or other screaming emergencies. I can see the emergency wing right off to the side. In many ways the main hospital building looks more like a mall or an office building than a hospital when you first enter. Maybe that's a good thing.

These next few have to do with PET scans
3. I still have to do a pregnancy test before every PET scan. And before the test I also fill out a form asking me if I'm pregnant. First, why bother to ask me if you're going to give me a test anyway. Second, I always find it strange to be asked if I'm pregnant. I always say no (at least when I'm not) but I always think "I guess I could be?" The new show "I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant" just reinforces the ridiculousness of this question. Third, why can't I just pee on a stick? Aren't those tests like 99.9% effective now?

4. I also got a Homeland Security card at my PET scan the last time which I could give to customs people if I set off a metal detector or something, since this nuclear medicine would be in my system for 24 hours or so. I am kinda bummed I didn't get to use it. But seriously, do I want something circulating around in my body that could have set off a metal detector?

5. It is strange to come home and find strange stickers on your body that you didn't even know were there!

6. I was psyched to have gotten my period this month since it means that all that reproductive stuff probably hasn't been obliterated by the radiation or anything. At least not yet. (Sorry to get so personal!)

7. I feel more tired now. And sometimes a little nauseous after my treatment. But then I wonder if it's my mind playing tricks on me or if I'm tired for un-related reasons. And then it seems kinda silly to be having this whole debate with myself.

I think that's all I had for this list for now. I need to go play with a new Thomas the Train set. It has been a merry christmas for me. I hope so for you too, if you celebrate Christmas. And if you don't, I hope you had some delicious sushi and watched some good movies.