Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Pretend you don't see it

I haven't even looked in the mirror yet, but I have a throbbing coldsore.

Delightful, no? Last night, I woke up (well, I think C woke me up) and I couldn't get back to sleep because I went down a stress/guilt spiral over what I haven't accomplished at work over the past few months alternating with a comparatively less stressful think about what state I will be in after surgery.

So when I got to my desk this morning I could literally feel this stress-induced coldsore emerge. I wish I was one of those people who loses weight when they're stressed. Can I please have stress symptoms that will make me more, rather than less, attractive?

I have to get a lot sorted before I finish up work this week and it's pretty daunting. Oy.

Buried beneath this is the fact that I have to revisit a New York Times expose on radiation overdoses. I read the first of about ten pages of the article, got pretty horrified and closed it. I'll get to that later I guess. I think it's important to read.

Hopefully, by my last day of work this Friday, this cold sore and its causes will have subsided.

2 comments:

  1. I am sure you look great.

    And New York Times articles will likely make 'me' go crazy... in the past few months I half read that Radiation article, read one about magnet cartels in China because of high demand for rare earths for green energy, and one more that made me so unhappy when I was done. So watch out.
    Good luck and keep posting....

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  2. OK, good to know that the NYT kills your spirit. I'll keep reading US Weekly instead.

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