What do you think about deliberate creation?
In other words, do you think you can attract something to your life through sheer will and positive thinking? I've been thinking about this concept lately and I guess, if I had the energy, I could dust off the high school Voltaire and really delve into the fate vs. free will debate. But, there's too much god-damned reality TV to catch up on.
I digress.
Is this completely silly or is there something to it? I've heard it works for some people. I haven't read "The Secret" but I assumed it was hooey and I don't have an Oprah-style inspiration wall (what does she call those things again?) But let's face it, it doesn't look like Oprah is doing too badly.
I've been wondering lately if I need to set more concrete goals for myself. I have not really been one to really take the reigns on my life. I mean, I definitely had something to do with how things have turned out so far, but it's been slightly more like a runaway donkey ride than a trot on a thorougbred.
There's something about a diagnosis of a fatal disease at age 35 (Hey Googlebot: chordoma), that does give me an urge to set up some more explicit goals. It feels like a bit of a do-over sometimes. It makes me want to create more positives out of negatives than I've had a tendency to do. Don't get me wrong, I don't think I'm actively doing that that much yet. But I want to.
I want to be better at a lot of things at work and in my personal life. But maybe at the same time I can also just manifest fantastic destiny. Remember this? I want more of that kind of "luck", if that's what it is.
We're in the midst of a house-hunt at the moment and a couple of places seemed like they would work for us, but they ended up falling through. I haven't felt as much as a twinge of sadness or disappointment about those places (though I am pretty divergent from my mom in that I don't get terribly emotional about real estate or haircuts). More than ever before, I feel like the right place for us will pop up and it will just work. It won't be too hard and it will be more right than any place we've seen before.
That's my intuition. Can I will it to be? Can I do the same for my upcoming MRI and every one thereafter?
I will keep you posted!
Well, self-help books are garbage Oprah or not. Maybe they are just garbage for me. If there was a self-help book that was one page and said, "Don't listen to anyone." then I think that would be a valid one. That and the one that my father has always said he was going to write called, "Stay Still, Don't Die" which was his answer to not excercising since Jim Fixx the joggin guru died while jogging. As time has gone on, my father excercises more than anyone I know so, there's that.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, this sort of life contemplation is usually mute because really, it's like New Year's resolutions and how long do those last.
Neal, you are probably right, but I figured it's worth a try.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I'd like to introduce you to the word moot. Not mute. Moot.
Well I like the word mute in this sense, because I like to think life contemplation is mute more than moot. It is nice to see but the volume is off and so you don't get the whole picture and when you turn the volume back on it's not exactly what you thought but close... ?
ReplyDeleteMaybe?
:)
Oh and apparently you can introduce me to commas!
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